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Joy and Happiness to All

Thu Dec 3, 2009, 7:18 PM
  • Mood: Passionate
  • Playing: WoW // Uncharted 2 // ACiT
Zeki-Life

So, Christmas is coming up soon. It feels like it's taken ages to get here. I remember last Christmas Day, I was sitting about and pining for Brendan, waiting for him to answer my texts. Ah. :heart:

This year I will be with him, snuggling and giving presents and opening them in return!

What was your favourite memory of last Christmas? What do you hope for this Christmas?

Personally, I hope that everyone likes the gifts I've given them...


I bleed it out

Mon Nov 16, 2009, 6:33 PM
  • Mood: Passionate
  • Playing: WoW // Fable 2 // MW2
Zeki-Life

I bleed it out, digging deeper just to throw it away...

So yeah, current news. Christmas is coming, and I'm happy about it. I love Christmas. I've bought a few presents, and I'll be buying a few more this friday hopefully, if I can get out to the mall. I've even wrapped a few, and I have my tree out - I know it's early, but the tree was a gift from my Nana because I didn't have my own, and I wanted to put it up. It's not decorated yet, but the presents I wrapped are already under it. The only bad part about Christmas is that Brendan's mother has invited me to christmas lunch, and I don't want to be rude plus Brendan wants to spend part of christmas with his family (I respect that) so I'm gonna go. I just don't like his mother, and I know I will eat NOTHING - I never eat at christmas, full of seafood and cold meats I hate and growss salads. Why can there never be a nice simple salad without all the dressings and colesaw stuff? Ew. Carrot and celery sticks for me, thanks.

Wow, rambling. Haven't seen that in a while.

But I've also been a bit melancholy. I've been depressing myself over something, and there appears to be nothing I can do about it by myself.
The thing is, I HAD a friend. A really good friend too. We were awesome mates. But then something happened, and we had a fight.
We never forgave each other. Never talked after that.
And the kicker is... I want to. I want to talk to my mate, I want to forgive them, even though it's been so long since I've seen them. But it seems like they don't want to talk to me, even after all the times I've tried to contact him.

Do I hold out? Maybe they've been busy, I don't know. I've literally heard nothing of them since we fought. I don't know what they're doing, I don't know if they hate me, I don't know if they've been trying to contact me. I don't know...

It's a bad predicament. I know I can't get over it or stop obsessing until they talk to me, even if it is to say "piss off bitch, I never want to talk to you again" etc. At least then I would know they didn't want to forgive me, and I could move on. And at least no-one could say I wasn't willing, you know?

Anyway. I'm going to stop rambling and do a quiz, and tonight I should have some doodles to put up, as I finally found a scanner nearby to use and I got my tablet+photoshop back from Narnia (it's been missing for months).

xx Zeki

Quizparts

Stole this from an old journal.

Name?: I have two - Jade or Zeki, depends how you know me.
Age?: 19
Height?: 5'3"
Weight?: 50-60kg
Birthday?: 12/05/1990
Birthplace?: Gosford City
Current Location?: Hornsby (I'm at work)
School/Grade?: None, currently.
Zodiac Sign?: Taurus
Chinese Zodiac Sign?: Horse
Righty or Lefty?: Right
Haircolor?: Brown
Eyecolor?: Brown

About you:
What's Your Family Situation (Parents, Siblings, etc)?: My Mother is Godzilla, my father is M.P.U., my sister pillages bodies (after pushing them down stairs), my youngest brother is a drooler, the next one up is thuper ghey, and my big brother is AMGEXPLOSIONSINTHEBACKYARDWITHACHAINSAW.
Any Pets?: Yes.
If So, What Are They?: Just my cat, Amaterasu.
Favorite Relative?: Please refer to AMGEXPLOSIONSINTHEBACKYARDWITHACHAINSAW.
Least Favorite Relative?: MPU
What's Your Heritage/Race?: 50% English 50% Scottish
Political Affiliation?: lolwut

Love and sex:
Sexuality?: I likes teh cawk.
Are You In A Relationship Now?: Yes.
If So, With Whom?: Brendan <3
For How Long?: 1 year as of 1/1/10
Are You In Love?: Love isn't a big enough word.
Do You Have A Crush On Anyone?: No.
Ever Had A Crush On Someone Of The Same Sex?: Nope
How Old Were You When You Had Your First Kiss?: 16.
If Not, How Old Were You When You Had Sex For The First Time?: lol19
What's The Farthest You've Ever Gone?: See above :P

Your friends;
Best?: Brendan, Neski, Corey
More Guys Or Girls?: More guys
Love Them All?: Yes.
Any You Wish You Were Closer To?: Corey. Physcially. I WANT YOUR CHAINSAW OKAY.
Oldest?: Neski, I've known her since 7th grade.
Newest?: brendan, I known him nearly 2 years now.

This or that;
Boxers or Briefs?; Boxerrrrrs!
Thongs or G-Strings?: Boxers.
Shorts or Pants?: Pants.
Shoes or Barefeet?: Barefeet.
Books or Movies?: Books.
Night or Day?: Night.
Dark or Light?: Dark.
Mountains or Beach?: Beach.
Snow or Sun?: Sun.
Pepsi or Coke?: Coke.
Guys or Girls?: Cock.
Swim or Surf?: Swim.

For or against;
Gay Marriage?: Sure.
Abortion?: Your choice, honey.
Bush Getting Re-elected?: Well he didn't, so nyah! Now Obama, start playing warcrack and we'll start talking.
Suicide?: Against.
War?: War is distasteful, but unavoidable.
Pants?: Against, only on me ;D
Clothes In General?: See above.
Penises?: AWESOME.

Favourites;
Color?: Pink/Black.
Holiday?: New Years Eve.
Season?: Autumn.
Movie?: Star Wars.
Book?: 7 Ancient Wonders
Food?: Mashed Potato
Drink?: Coke.
TV Show?: Unsure.
Band?: Unsure.
Video Game?: Warcrack/Okami
Anime/Manga?: Fullmetal Alchemist
Pants?: Jeans.
Actor?: None.
Actress?: None.
Flower?: Rose.
Animal?: Fox.
Cookie?: Triple Choc Chip.

The future;
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?: Queen Zeki
Want To Get Married?: Yes
Want To Have Kids?: If it happens it happens
Where Do You Want To Live?: Somewhere near the sea and the forest at the same time.
Where Do You Want To Get Married?: Near the forest.
How Do You Want To Die?: Not at all.

More about me;
Piercings?: Three in one ear, two in the other.
Tattoos?: None.
Smoke?: No.
Drink?: Only on certain occasions.
Do Drugs?: No.
Skinny Dip?: Yes.
Greatest Fear?: Falling.
Chocolate or Vanilla?: Chocolate.
Go To Church?: No.
Religion?: Pagan (Non Practising Wiccan)
Scars?: A few, mostly on my legs and arms. IT WAS MY CAT.
CDs Owned?: roflwut
Collections?: Of what? (Mostly video game shit anyway)
Like To Be Naked?: Hellsyeah!
Ever Eaten Sushi?: Yes.
An Entire Case Of Oreos?: fuckyes.
Been On Stage?: Yes.
Danced In The Rain?: Yes.
Kissed Someone Of The Same Sex?: Yes.
Weirdest Dream?: My mother was The Mask.
Best Dream?: I don't have a "best"
Saddest Dream?: Ammy dying.
Dream You Most Wish Would Come True?: Winning a fortune and making sure Brendan and I want for nothing.
Think You're Attractive?: No.
Shoplifted?: Nope.
Been Caught "Doing Something"?: Nope.
Weirdest Make out Place?: No-where weird. Don't ask about sex though.
Like Thunderstorms?: Yes.
Favorite Shoes?: My ballet flats. I gave this answer a year ago too!
Best Advice Given?: "Don't think about it."
Worst Advice Given?: My won advice, really.
Favourite Song Lyric?: We hunt, pulsing with the earth
Glad This Is Over?: It was fun while it lasted.

5 People You Tag?
Anyone who wants to do it!


Urban Dictionary

Fri Nov 13, 2009, 7:36 PM
  • Mood: Passionate
  • Playing: WoW // Fable 2 // MW2
:damphyr:Zeki-Life:damphyr:

Stolen from someone I knew a long time ago...

1.) Your name? Jade
The best guitarist in the world
The new word for God
(Knew it.)


2.) Your age? 19
The Canadian drinking age. 2 years better than 21.
"Heck yes I'll have a drink, because I'm 19" (adding 'eh' to the end of this is, of course, optional)


3.) One of your friends? Vanessa
A moderately common name for an American female; pretty; hot; beautiful; perfect; cutest girl you'll ever see; angel


4.) What should you be doing? Working
A term to describe the tedious and boring indentured servitude that most people are forced to endure to get money. Generally, not a pleasant experience.
(hahahahahahahha so true ;__;)


5.) Favorite color? Pink
slang reference to the vagina (WUT? D:)


6.) Birthplace? Gosford
A city in NSW, Australia. It's the largest city in the Central Coast area. Deros, junkies, dealers, brothels, nightclubs, pubs and the rest of the scum that make up the lower class in society reside here. Best to take some kind of protection with you when coming from sydney, newcastle or melbourne as fuckwits there tend to glass, bash, stab and shoot each other over nothing. Stay away from the train stations in the area like woy woy, lisarow, niagara park, wyong etc after dark as your likely to get rolled, robbed or bashed for no reason...

Often driving you will pass masses of youths drinking on the streets and fighting coz "there's no good parties round" or because "its a monday". has the highest youth unemployment and crime rate in nsw per capita. unlike parts of sydney which are dominated by gangs of certain races, the whole coast is a mixed boiling pot of different backgrounds living off welfare payments, alcohol, weed and other drugs.

Close to some nicer areas like terrigal and avoca, its just gosford and its inner suburbs like wyoming, lisarow, niagara park, narara are where all the poor, unemployed and criminals live.

1. "Hey mate lets hit iggy's in gosford this fri, they've got mad hot chicks"

"no way, they'll probably stab us and roll us for our liqor"


(Shit, I still live here.)


7.) Month of your birth? May
may is the month where teachers think that they can control a classroom but really nothing gets done and no one cares about their grades anymore. usually this happens because summer break is only 30 days away


8.) Last person you talked to? Stephen
Greek in origin, I've come to the conclusion that Stephen is just about the coolest male name. Whether it's prnounced 'Stef-an' or 'Steve-en' doesn't matter, it's just awesome.
Steph and Stevie are also the coolest nicknames.


9.) One of your nicknames? Zeki
Homosexual beyond any measure that scientists are currently capable of detecting.
(Hoi. I'm not a man!)

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That was... fun... I guess. I have a new drawing I'll be uploading tonight. Keep your eyes peeled for it. Hopefully you'll like it.

We hunt, pulsing with the earth

Tue Aug 11, 2009, 10:38 PM
  • Mood: Passionate
  • Listening to: Of Wolf and Man - Metallica
  • Playing: WoW // Viva Pinata
  • Eating: Mountain Dew
Zeki-Life

So, I should totally put up more of my sketches.

I really should... I feel I've lost some of my passion for drawing, and I really miss it. The other night, I was listening to Of Wolf and Man (Metallica) and I felt such a rush, I needed to draw... I had Brendan repeat the song three times while I drew, so I wouldn't lose the base, the feeling...

I miss that. I wonder where it all went?

I miss my muse. I can see it sometimes, but I don't know where it has gone others...

I guess I'll hook up my scanner. Not that anyone would comment if I bothered to put up the sketches.

/sigh

xx Zeki


Remnant

Fri Jul 10, 2009, 11:51 PM
  • Mood: Passionate
  • Playing: WoW // inFAMOUS
Zeki-Rant

Dislaimer: if you read this, you can't be angry about anything I say.

Is it just me, or are people rude these days? People on trains, on streets, on phones... People are rude, selfish and shallow. Am I some sort of relic of a by-gone era? Is it not 'cool' to be polite and considerate anymore? Is it not hip to actually put others before yourself as an act of courtesy? Everyday, I hear something or see something that makes me feel out of place even more. Where I will always address someone as sir or ma'am when not given a title or name, I rudely get called 'lady', as if I shouldn't be referred to with some respect - especially when I have you item's warranty in my hands. and it's not like I don't give them my name either.

I heard someone this morning on the train going off at a woman because she was 'too slow to get off the train'. Obviously someone had picked her up on her behaviour or something, because I saw her just push her way onto a train.

And yesterday, while walking from the station to work, I had this loud mouthed teenage creature behind me, practically yelling in my ear while talking to her friends about how 'she needed to get a boyfriend before the holidays ended because omg her friend dared her to and she had to beat her'.


WHAT. THE. FUCK.

I consider that the very hieght of stupidity and rudeness. Other people don't want to hear how shallow you are little girl. And you certainly shouldn't be looking for a relationship because some other idiot fucking dared you. I always thought that you had to have feelings for someone before you actually considering asking them out on a date. Do people even do that anymore, dates? Or is that 'uncool' too?

Uh. And another example. I was talking to a slightly older gentleman, and I asked him for the serial number of his PlayStation. He then asked his son if he could please unplug it and bring it over, as the phone wouldn't reach that far. I didn't think this was an unfair request. Apparently the kid (who seemed about my age, maybe a little younger) thought differently. He went off at his father, absolutely yelling and screaming about his dad being lazy, and asking how fucking hard it was to unplug two cables to get the machine, etc etc.

Please shoot me should I ever act like that.

And another! My workmate was talking to a customer (I could hear some of this, and was told the story after), and this cutomer asked his wife: "Honey, could you get me a pen?" and she went off as well. Yelling about how he should get off his ass and stop being lazy. So he went and got the pen obviously, but forgot the paper, and asked her to pass the one next to her - and yes, you guessed it. She spazzed out... again. Sweet Gods, what kind of world do I live in?

I always believed in Karma, the law of three. What goes around, comes back threefold. I always treated people as I would expect myself to be treated... but to hear these things disheartens me greatly. It's hard to have faith in society when it's people like this who are cool.

And it was people who acted like this who made me the outcast in school. I don't get it, why is being rude cool? I was always polite, I didn't tease people... sweet gods. I don't think I should be alive in this era. Send me back to a time where people didn't abuse people on the streets for doing nothing, and didn't insult the people on support lines trying to help them... and a time where people had enough respect for a woman to NOT EAT DURING A PHONE CALL. (Just had a call then).

/rant

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